So, I started a blog and thought to myself, “this will be fun, I can share my thoughts and maybe they will bless someone.” I was rather surprised to discover a mounting pressure that began to well up in the back of my mind. Suddenly there was an entity that I had committed to and it caused a flurry of questions to surface; “what if I don’t have anything to say?”, “what if I say too much?”, “what if I, unintentionally, hurt someone?”, “what if no ones reads this?”, “what if someone reads this?”, amongst other foolish internal queries. This ramble of thoughts by no means absorbed my day, they were just a few fleeting impulses that crossed the landscape of my mind but I gave them credence. Silliness, I’ll admit, but pressure inducing silliness. How often do I allow such silly, inconsequential things to have power over me? How many precious moments have I wasted in giving up when I should have just taken a breath to remember the goodness of God? Anxiety isn’t a force in and of itself. It is a relinquishing, not a vanquishment. To relinquish is to voluntarily cease to keep or claim, to give up. I find it a little humiliating how I quickly capitulate to this toothless enemy and lose the comfort of a soul at rest. I have discovered that I tend to be more anxious about little things than I am about big things. I think that I tend to push God into the position of only being concerned about the “big picture” items and that I am on my own with the day-to-day concerns. Every day is full of opportunities to remember that God is endlessly faithful. He is faithful in every aspect of my life, big or small. I will probably relinquish my peace tomorrow, several times if I know myself at all. I will also remember that there is a God who loves me with an everlasting love. He has told me, over and over in His word to fear not and I’m going to trust Him. So, I started a blog and people may read it or not, I might say too much or not enough, I might accidentally hurt someone but I’m not going to fret about it. This will be fun, I can share my thoughts and maybe they will bless someone.